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Favourite Start of a Song

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 17:07:00 +0100

Nicked idea from katie11 - hehe

Summer of 69 with its Don Don donananana

Jump Around with Doo Do Do Doooo WAA

Yep not doing a fantastic job explaining this but you know when you here the first few notes of a song and a smile forms on your face.

Holiday

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:58:00 +0100

Time to breathe

Space to enjoy

Love to revel in

Mind to free

Heat to feel

Water to rush around

Night to cool

Days to chill

You to kiss

breathe in

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:57:00 +0100

Breathe in

Cant breathe out

Breathe in

Cant breathe out

Looking for help

Eyes bulging

Scared

Story Structure

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:57:00 +0100

My thoughts consist of

A beginning

The idea

The middle

My opinions

And thats it.

My thoughts do not have an end

Experience will lead me there

Once i have found the end

My story will be complete

Religion vs me

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:56:00 +0100

I dont believe

I just know

To have a completely open mind is a blessing and a curse

I want to understand everything

Two sides to every story

My highs have no limit

Nor do my lows

I have felt peace

I have held a blade to my throat

Let me see what you have seen

Then i will show you better

My mind can not be controlled

By rules

Or by a book

Only by limits i place on myself

My body

My life

Lets see what happens

When i let go

That

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:52:00 +0100

Sit down and do this

How can i do this

I want to do this or this

This would be fun

This will have to wait

This is important

Prioritise this

How about i do this and you can do this

Oh this is naughty

This is what i’m doing tonight

Over here i see this

What was i doing again?

This is the word of...

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:51:00 +0100

I will lead you

I will show you the way

My views and opinions you will take as truth

You will believe in me

You will look up to me

My words will keep you safe

Keep you moving in the right direction

I will be there when you fail

Helping you

Bettering you

Until i am gone and you are ready to lead

On the hill

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:51:00 +0100

Lay down

Eyes closed

A pulse of euphoria begins

Feeling warm, relaxed

Body floats from the grass

Into space

Alone now

This is my peace

I want to share it with you

Private

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:50:00 +0100

Remedies

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:49:00 +0100

Heavy weight on my shoulders

A rush of heat down my forearms

Pulsing pain at the end of my fingers

Someone is pushing on my chest

The drugs are working

My headache is gone

Guilty

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:49:00 +0100

Tried to type feelings about matters that i should be feeling.

I’m not.

I’m still sore.

The mind is an amazing thing.

Pure joy can be found in the smallest things.

But the hurt you feel never dies.

I would like a few more highs right now.

The lows are winning.

Version

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:48:00 +0100

Learn from your mistakes 2.0

Improve 2.3

Learn 2.5

Grown 2.8

Make new mistakes 3.0

Jigsaw

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:48:00 +0100

I have lots of thoughts

Rushing around inside my head

If i was to empty it

What would land on the table would be

Numbers

Letters

Pictures

And maybe even some fully formed words and sentences

Once they are on the table

I would piece them together like a jigsaw

Finding my real feelings on matters that i didnt know i even had feelings about

What i am trying to do here is help myself finish this jigsaw while its still in my head

I’m going to start with the corners

I will never be inside out

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:48:00 +0100

I am in a rage

Fire in my stomach

Pain in my neck

Wanting to run

Pushing me

It demands a reaction

But i will hold it in

I will smile

Experience

bigpete1984 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:47:00 +0100

2000

I was scared

I was relieved

I was worried

I was crushed

I was lost

I was supportive

I then cracked

I then cried

2008

he was scared

he was relieved

he was worried

he is crushed

I will support

I will help

I still cry